jinx

i said i was happy so now i am not.
well, right now i am happy because i got a new backpack and some other school supplies. and a wallet. but that is a materialistic happiness.

i want a baby girl that i can give tutus and take video of dancing like a primaballerina and make snacks for and bring to petting zoos but not ones of the farm animal variety. and a cat and a small dog and a snake. and a big turtle. in a little house with a porch with a fence and a field near a forest with all sorts of musical instruments and a library and a huge bed near a wall with huge windows looking out towards said forest and lots, LOTS of glow-in-the-dark stars.

restoration

On myspace I am friends with this guy, his name is Brandt. He is hyper religious. Usually this annoys me, but he is taking his religion and helping people. How can you be annoyed by a guy whose goal in life is to feed the poor?
Makes me feel useless. I can't do anything from where I am. I can't even clean my room. I can't wait to get to British Columbia. When I get there, I've decided, I am going to do something. I don't know what it is yet, but I'm going to do it. Start something new that will affect people in some way.
Just two more years of this. I really don't know if I can handle it... I mean life is really good and all, but that's the thing, I feel selfish. For being in such a great place with my life.

last link

to me

Most keep a weblog because they feel like the whole world cares about their mundane lives. I keep one as something to pass the time, an excuse to type and type and type

France

It's the place to be

o lawds

I do love Angel when he is naughty. But Spike is my favourite.

I wish they would stop treating him so rudely. I mean I know he would just turn around and bite them but they could at least attempt to make a sort of truce you know?

Can't watch without thinking about things naughtier than naughty Angel.

Christmas List

• Avocado Tree
• Wings
• Glow in the dark stars
• Magic faerie dust
• Film (fujifilm instax, 35mm colour/black and white, polaroid?, Holga)
• 35mm camera
• Atlas
• Rat or snake
• Charm bracelet
• Pretty beads
• Knitting needles
• Francesca Lia Block books
• Books on Surrealism

weird

I just realised an image I've been using for awhile is by someone I actually know.
I got a pretty ring. And some VHS tapes and some books.
Still feel weird.